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Love Like A Sunset: Chapter 3.

Jun. 5th, 2011 | 07:38 am

Oh gosh, it's been forever since I've updated. I'm sorry about that, haha. This chapter isn't that great, but whatever, lol.

The next morning I woke up and I was still in Mark's arms. I thought he would have left once I had fallen asleep but I guess he decided to stick around instead. I stayed close to him and let out a small sigh, thinking about the night before. The fight between me and Arizona, her throwing her ring at me and then leaving, Mark showing up.. it was all so much to handle, and the thoughts were making me want to curl up into a ball and die. Before I knew it, Mark was awake and wiping away the tears that fell from my eyes. I didn't even notice that I was crying at first. "Cal, it's okay." I shook my head and stood up. "That's what everyone says, Mark. 'It's all going to be okay in the end.' But it's rarely ever true. Don't say that to try and make me feel better, only say it if it's true." I looked down the hall when I heard a loud scream coming from Sofia's bedroom. I almost forgot about her.. isn't that sad? I walked into her room and picked her up. "Shh, baby, it's okay. Momma's here." I kissed her cheek and walked back into the kitchen, where Mark was and of course, he was already digging around every where looking for something to eat. "I'll cook you something, just take Sofia." "No, Callie. I'll eat cereal, you make Sofia a bottle. Give her to me." "But Mark.." "Callie, no." He took Sofia from me and I let out a sigh and grabbed her bottle from the cabinet and the formula. I watched Mark with Sofia as I made the bottle, and I think that was the first time I've smiled since last night. He was so good with her, but that didn't surprise me.

"Okay, come here Sof, let momma feed you." Mark handed Sofia to me and then made his own breakfast while I fed Sofia. Luckily, that got her to fall back asleep. I laid her down on the couch and set a pillow on the side of her so she wouldn't fall off. "Get her to fall asleep?" I jumped a little when I heard the voice behind me. "Mark, you scared me." "Sorry." I smiled weakly and looked at him. "What am I going to do, Mark?" "You can't stay in that marriage, Cal.. She's treating you bad, and you don't deserve it. You need to get out of that marriage before it's too late." "I suppose you are right, but it's not that easy." "You gotta do what you gotta do. I'll be here with you through it all." He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me in for a hug. I held on to him tightly and closed my eyes, trying my hardest to keep back the tears that were once again forming in my eyes. It's all going to work out in the end.. It has to, right? I hope so.

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Gold Star Death: Chapter 2.

Apr. 15th, 2011 | 09:47 am

I dedicate this to Jennifer. This chapter is told from Quinn's POV. Read and enjoy. :)

The ambulance finally got there, but they wouldn't let me ride in the ambulance with Rachel. I was pretty upset about that because I wanted to be by Rachel's side through this, though I wasn't even sure if she wanted me around. I walked home since it wasn't that far from Rachel's and I told my mom about what happened. She was shocked by all of this. I mean, it was Rachel Berry who had done this to herself. No one would have ever thought that she would do something like this. She always seemed so happy all the time, but then she does this and I don't know what to believe anymore. All I could do was pray that Rachel would live. She needed to.. she had to.

The next morning I woke up around 11am. Thank God it was Friday. My mom was awake and she had made breakfast, but I wasn't really hungry for anything. "Mom, can you take me to the hospital? I..I want to go see Rachel." She nodded. "I'll be out in the car. Hurry up." I ran into my bedroom and changed my clothes quickly then fixed my hair and make up. I was surprised my mom agreed to take me, but I didn't care about that right now. All I cared about was Rachel. I didn't know for sure if she was okay or not, but I was hoping that she was. I grabbed my purse and ran outside and got in the car.

Me and my mom both got to the hospital, but she said she didn't really want to go in. I was fine with that. I got out of the car and ran inside. "I'm here to see Rachel Berry. Can I have her room number?" I watched as the woman behind the desk scrolled through whatever it was she was looking at. "Room 291." "Thank you." I looked at all the numbers on the doors and sighed. "288.. 289.. 290.. 291.." I was still scared to go in and see Rachel. We weren't even really friends.. were we? I've been quite mean to her in the past, which I regret. Maybe it was because I realized I had feelings for her, and I've never had feelings for a girl before so I didn't know how to handle it. I let out another sigh and knocked on the door. "Rachel?" I opened the door slowly and walked into the room then closed the door. She wasn't awake. They had bandages on her arm from where she cut herself, which made me want to cry just thinking that she did that to herself. I sat down on the chair that was next to her bed and looked at her. "Rach.. I know I haven't been too nice to you before, but I really never meant any of it. I..I was only like that because I realized something. I realized that I had feelings for--" I stopped what I was saying when Rachel started to open her eyes. "Oh my God, Rachel? Can you see me? Can you hear me?" She nodded and I smiled big.

"Q..Quinn.. what were y..you saying earlier?" I looked away and sighed. I didn't think she had heard any of that, but she did. Should I just tell her and get it over with? What if she rejects me? Then she'll start to hate me.. and I didn't want that. But I didn't want to lie to her either. "It was nothing.." "Don't lie to me.. please." We looked at each other, and there was a look on Rachel's face and something in her eyes, that made me want to just admit it.. just go ahead and tell her. I don't know why this was so hard for me. It had never been this hard before, but with Rachel it was different. I took a deep breath and then finally told her. "I..I have feelings for.. you.." The expression on her face immediately changed. Damnit.. she doesn't feel the same way about me. Why didn't I keep my mouth shut?

We sat in silence for about five minutes until she finally talked. "You have feelings.. for me?" I nodded and looked down, not even saying a word. "Quinn.. I--" "No, don't say it. You don't feel the same about me. It's okay. I'll just go." I stood up and walked towards the door. "Don't go, Quinn. I never even said that." "You didn't have to though." "Quinn.. I like you. I've liked you ever since I met you. Even after how bad you treated me, I forgave you. The feelings never went away." I turned back around and walked back over to the bed. "Why'd you do this to yourself?" She didn't say a word. "Was it because of something someone said to you? Was it because Finn broke your heart? What was it, Rachel?" "It was the way everyone was treating me. It hurt me." "I didn't kn--" "I hid how I felt. Couldn't let anyone think that I was even a little upset about it." "I'm so sorry, Rachel.. I should've done something. I should have helped you.. or stood up for you. I'm sorry." I sat back down next to Rachel and grabbed her hand gently. "I won't let any of that stuff happen to you again, okay?" She didn't say anything, she just smiled at me. I didn't know if she believed me about any of the things I said, but I really did mean them. And once she was out of this hospital, I was going to do everything I could to try and prove to her that I'm going to be here for her whenever she needs me. I honestly loved her and I didn't care about what anyone thought about that anymore.

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Gold Star Death: Chapter 1.

Apr. 15th, 2011 | 08:30 am

Just something that popped into my head. I'm not sure how many chapters this will have either. Before you read.. This might be triggering. Other than that, enjoy? Haha.

Rachel Barbra Berry. That's my name. I'm sure everyone knows it by now. I've always wanted to be a Broadway star, and I thought that being in the Glee club would help me with that, or at least it would mean something until I was finally on Broadway. Boy, was I wrong. Ever since I joined Glee club, I've only gotten made fun of. People would talk about me behind my back, like they didn't know I knew about it or something. But I did. I pretended like I didn't care at all, when really, every little thing someone would say about me would get to me. Getting slushied almost every week was not fun either. Obviously I hid my emotions very well. After Finn broke my heart, that's when everything went downhill. I mean, of course, I still pretended to be fine, even when I wasn't.

Today I couldn't take it anymore. When I got home from school, I ran into my bedroom and immediately started crying. Thank God my dad's weren't home. I looked at myself in the mirror and wiped away my tears. My mascara was smeared, my hair was slightly messed up.. I looked like a mess. All of my emotions were just too much. I walked into the bathroom and looked around for my razor blade and some pills. I had forgotten why I had the razor blade in the first place, but I guess now it was coming in handy. I got a cup of water and sat down on the bathroom floor with my back up against the wall. I held the razor blade tight in my hand, with the pills and the cup of water right next to me. I grabbed the water with my other hand, along with the pills. I popped two of them in my mouth and took a drink then swallowed. I took two more, and then another two right after that. I sat the cup on the floor, well more like dropped it, then looked at the razor blade that was still in my hand. I laid on the floor for a couple more minutes, not moving or saying a word, before I finally pulled my sleeves up and held my arm in front of me. I held the razor blade and swiped it across my arm quickly, then did it another two times, and then another. I dropped the razor blade on the floor and let out a small cry for help, even though I knew no one was home to help me. I closed my eyes and leaned my head back.

"Rachel? Hello?" I could barely even open my eyes, but I recognized that voice. Quinn Fabray. I guess I had forgotten that she was supposed to come over to write a song with me. We weren't that great of friends, but you could say we were making progress. "Q..Quinn.. Help m..me.." Getting those words out was hard, and I doubt Quinn even heard me. I sat there, trying to keep my eyes open.. trying to live. That's when everything went pitch black.

"Rachel! Oh my God, Rachel! How could you -- What did you do?!" Quinn yelled, kneeling on to the ground in front of Rachel. She had no idea what she was supposed to do. She had never seen something like this before. "Rachel, open your eyes! Please!" She grabbed a towel and wrapped it around Rachel's arm where her cuts were. She didn't know what else to do about that since she didn't even know her way around Rachel's house or anything. "I..I'll be right back. Rachel, please..please don't die.." She whispered as she got up and ran downstairs, looking for her purse. She dug through her purse, grabbing her cell phone. She dialed 911 immediately.

"Hi. I..I have an emergency. It's important. My friend, she..she tried to kill herself. Can you please get here as soon as possible? I don't think she has much time left.." She gave the woman Rachel's address and ran back upstairs into the bathroom. "Rachel, someone is coming to help you, okay? Please don't die.. live.. please." Quinn sat down on the floor and wrapped her arms around Rachel, holding her in her arms. She looked at the towel that was still wrapped safely around Rachel's arm. Tears started streaming down her face. Why would Rachel do something like this to herself? I just don't understand. Please, God.. do not let her die.. please. Quinn wiped away her tears and just continued to hold Rachel until the ambulance got there.

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Love Like A Sunset: Chapter 2.

Apr. 15th, 2011 | 06:00 am

I'm not even sure how many chapters this is going to be, but anyway.. enjoy! 

I laid Sofia back down in her crib and walked out into the living room where Mark was at. "I'm fine. Just another fight, that's all." He shook his head and walked over to me. "Cal, you don't have to lie to me. I know it was more than that." I sighed and sat down on the couch. It was more than that, but saying it out loud would make me replay everything that happened in my head, which I didn't want. But it was Mark. I couldn't just lie to him and tell him that I was perfectly fine, when we both knew that I wasn't.

"The fight got pretty bad.. worse than other fights. And her ring.. she threw it at me." I was trying so hard not to cry. Just thinking about what happened was making me even more upset. Mark sat down next to me and wrapped his arm around me. "What were you fighting about?" I looked up at him, tears filling my eyes. "Cal, tell me." I looked down for a minute then looked back up at him before I finally spoke. "We..We were fighting about you." He looked confused at first but then after a minute I'm pretty sure that he finally understood. "She said that I'm with you too much.. and that you have no boundaries. I tried telling her that, no, that wasn't true.. but that made her even more angry. That I was sticking up for you instead of taking her side on this. That's when she threw her ring at me and stormed off. I..I'm not sure where she went, or if she will even be back. This wasn't what I wanted, Mark.."

"It wasn't what you wanted? What do you mean?" "I never wanted a marriage like this. I always pictured a happy marriage, one with no fights, we'd aways be trying to make each other happy, and our kids would be running around outside, we would just all be happy.. you know? Just a happy marriage. Not perfect, but still great. But no, that's not what I got. I got the complete opposite." And that's when the tears started to stream down my face. I've cried in front of Mark before, but not like this. He wrapped his arms around me even tighter and kissed my head gently. "Shh, calm down, Callie. It's all going to be okay. I promise."

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Love Like A Sunset: Chapter 1.

Apr. 15th, 2011 | 05:05 am

I dedicate this to Amelia and Mindy! :D Chapter two will be up soon. It's told from Callie's POV, obviously.

Life hasn't been easy for me lately. It had been tough on both me and Arizona. We've been fighting a lot more than normal, and I absolutely hated it. We would fight over every little pointless thing and it got tiring doing that almost every day. Arizona would usually storm off and leave instead of talking to me about the situation, which obviously did not help anything, but I would always end up going to Mark. He'd comfort me, reassure me that everything was going to be okay. He was my best friend. He was always who I went to whenever something went wrong, or just when I was feeling upset. He always knew exactly what to say to cheer me up. Arizona tried to do that for me.. sometimes, but it didn't work all the time.

Me and Arizona had another fight recently, it was a lot worse than our other fights. What made it worse was that Sofia was around to hear it and she didn't need that. Arizona threw her ring at me and then just left. I wasn't sure what it meant after she threw her ring at me though. It had never gotten so bad to the point of this. Were we still together, or not? I didn't know. I didn't even know if she'd be back or not, but I picked the ring up off the ground and sat it on the counter anyway. I walked into Sofia's room and picked her up. I didn't notice how hard she had been screaming until now. I felt so bad that my little girl had to be here to hear everything that had just happened. I walked around the room and rocked her in my arms while gently rubbing her back. I finally got her to calm down, and that's when I heard my apartment door open. I figured it was Mark, I guess I had forgotten that I called him. "Cal, you okay? What happened?"

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White Wedding.

Apr. 13th, 2011 | 10:21 pm

I figured since Ashley did it from Callie's POV, I'd do it from Arizona's POV. Enjoy. :P

Today was the day. The day I finally got to marry Calliope. I had never really thought about marriage, or having children with her, but I popped the question. It was a spur of the moment, but I don't regret it at all. Of course, I regret asking while driving, which led to a big mess. But aside from that, she said yes. And now this beautiful woman was about to become my wife.

I watched her walk down the aisle, with Mark by her side. God, she looked so beautiful. I never fully understood how I had gotten so lucky to be able to meet someone like Callie, let alone marry her. But I was so glad that I got the chance to meet her, even if how we met was a little weird. Meeting in a bar bathroom wasn't exactly how everybody wants to meet someone, but for me, it was pretty amazing. I looked at her, as she stood in front of me. I couldn't take my eyes off of her.

"Calliope, I know we've been through a lot of things in the past couple of years.. some good, some bad. But I honestly don't regret any of it. Because we wouldn't be here where we are today if we hadn't gone through any of it. I believe everything we've been through, has only made us stronger.. made our relationship stronger. I've loved you from the very start. I thought you were something special, and I was completely right. You're beautiful, smart, funny, and just all around an amazing and wonderful person. And I truly believe that I'm the luckiest person to have met you. You make me the happiest I've ever been.." I didn't realize that I had started crying, until I felt her hand reach up and wipe away my tears. I continued with what I was saying, looking back up into her beautiful eyes. "I know I've hurt you.. I know you've hurt me as well. But I promise that will never happen again. You are my everything. And I'll continue to love you through everything. I promise to keep you safe. I promise to be by your side forever. I'll protect you, even though you don't really need it. I promise I'll be here for you whenever you need me. You own my heart. I am in love with you. And that will never change, no matter what.  I'm ready for the journey that's ahead of us, and I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you."

Now she was crying, but she was also smiling. Which made me even happier. I wiped away her tears gently and pulled her close to me, kissing her deeply. She was my entire world, and now she was also my wife. I couldn't have asked for anything better.

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